Ja'Mya's English Blog

 I hate working out, but I love the good burn feeling if that make sense. The idea of working out sucks but when you actually get off your butt and move the burn is so worth it. But the weird thing about me I dance to work out. I don’t like specific area training. Like ab and leg training. With dancing you don’t focus on what you’re actually doing because you’re having fun. Being in the gym requires real determination. I love my dance for hours straight in my room. That’s my workout! Great conditioning and get your heart pumping.  And I dance frl not for fake it is indeed a sport!!!!

 Absent. 

 I wanted to say how I’m sorry how my presentation went. I’m not very good at being put on the spot. I hope u can understand..

 “Rlly Nia how come you’re just now telling me this?” Hazel scolded at Nia with a betrayed look on her face. “I’m so sorry Hazel I didn’t know how to tell you.” Hazel said this with so much guilt in her voice because she did the unthinkable to her best friend. So back story Nia and Hazel are best friend’s they met their sophomore year Nia being the new girl and Hazel opening her with opening arms. Hazel got a man Tay the high school play boi. Hazel new this but that was still her man at the end. Tay and Nia stared sneaking around and Nia got tired of hiding it from her best friend. She finally told her, but I didn’t turn out how she planned. I wanna start writing books idk probably starting on Wattpad lol I’m not sure. 🧍🏾‍♀️

 Trust, What does trust mean? The belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of. When you tell a friend you’re closet to, something you haven’t told anyone before. You’re confiding I’m someone just for them to betray you. There was a time where even the smallest things I’ve brought to my friends it came back in face sooner or later. I trusted them until I couldn’t no more. I had a friend tell an associate of ours something I thought we agreed not to speak on to others. But it ain’t that deep to them so cares. 🙄 I care and just for that how can I trust you anymore? 

 I would like to apologize to her, this is 9th grade Ja’Mya. Her first month of high school and little do she know the pain I’ve put her through. Before I met him, before I met them before I became her… the new Ja’Mya the old ones dead because I loss her to darkness and I’m sorry. I try to get her back everyday. But maybe she’s at rest. And it’s time for new Ja’Mya to step up and be the queen that she is. 👑

  I used to know how to apply lashes, I don’t want nobody down playing applying lashes because it’s a struggle. I remember my first ever pair. I was in the 7th grade and this is was during quarantine. So TikTok had me in a chokehold . Which had all the beautiful black girls on my time line with pretty long lashes and popping lip gloss. I was ready to hop on the trend. I asked my mom take me to every black young girls candy store. THE BEAUTY SUPPLY STOREE! I grabbed me some $1 lip glass some cheap lashes not know there’s a difference between mink and regular lashes. I had them on all day all night. I took a break from wearing them now i can’t do it at all. 😩

 I technically can’t remember anything from fifth grade math. Like I can’t not tell you what my teacher taught us. My teacher first language was not English, so the things he was saying IN MATH TERMM?? Had me rethinking my life decisions. Man had the audacity to get mad at us for not getting it. I can’t remember not one assignment but I book one and it’s all gibberish in my brain.

When I was in the 5th grade I was wild, and it’s crazy because I’m so reserved and quiet now. But in elementary me and my friends was outside!! And it was this one technology teacher that I didn’t like. He always had something to say and me back then (and now) hate when people (men specifically) tell me what to do. So everytime he said something I always objected to it. And not to much y’all because I was like 10🙄. Anyhoo one day he finally called my mama and I just knew when I got home it was finna be a problem smh. In the car she asked me about it and ofc future lawyer in training backed my argument up!

  I feel like I have too much pride, sometimes it can take over my better judgment. Resulting into me making decisions I end up regretting. Right now I’m really focusing on not making choices with my emotions. Me personally I’m emotional so even the slightest of frustration I’ll put you on my “I don’t mess wit you until you make it clear u don’t have no weird animosity towards me so now imma ghost ya.” Slowly but surly getting out of that mindset. 

  THE QUEEN WAS BORN: 222007 It’s February 2nd 2007. I was excited to see my first new baby girl. I went to the hospital so I can get induced. I wanted to wait no time to hold her in my arms. At 5am the doctors broke my water and it was time to start pushing. I started pushing around 6:50pm. While pushing the obilical cord was wrapped around her neck leaving me to go to emergency c section at 7:00pm. After the surgery she was taken to the niccu, I was so scared and confused. I was kept for 3 days. The baby is 16 now and she’s as healthy as ever and that baby is actually me #vvschildnotgolden! Thank you Ma for the information given 😘

  I can’t deny I don’t know everything, my mom  Would tell me that after I would swear I had all the sense in the world as an elementary school kid. I’m sometimes wrong, but it takes a strong person that is okay with learning mistakes to admit that. As a kid I was very defensive, but it’s only because it would only vs. others at time. I would be very unprovoked a fear that I would be walked over again. But who else gone do it?  

Something that I care about that is meaningless is others opinions and views on me. At the end of the day this my life and I'm going to live it how I want to. Others opinions don’t tend to affect me as much as before because I deeply feel like I'm that girl. And also folks are so entitled these days it’s sad. It really don’t be you just the people you keep around. At the end of the day if you in other folks business you gone die miserable. Get a life!! Secondly, my fear of losing people. People come and go it’s apart Of life, how am I going to experience happiness, betrayal, love without meeting people and never talking again.

1st person:  "Be ready at 3!" he said, I was stressing to know what to wear. He never told me where we were going just said it was a surprise. I was a wreck. Searching in my closer trying to find the perfect outfit for our date. I really like Jordan and I don’t want to screw up on the first date. So instead I wing it. (Worse idea) when he picked me up he stood outside of the car waiting for me to approach him. As I walk closer I see his gaze look me up and down. I don’t know if he was feeling me or what. We soon arrive at the destination and you won’t believe where he took me…. RIDING HORSES?!! I had a long black slim fit maxi dress with bedazzled sandles and this man took me to ride a horse. Omg. 

 I’m so happy it’s 🍟 day!! Not going to lie this year is ready to end because it’s almost November. Which gets me started on the topic I love thanksgiving. I don’t like the traditional and the come about to of the history of thanksgiving. But I love to eat and family time!! It’s not everyday you can get everyone together for a good cooked meal. I’m so excited!

As much as I get older the more I miss the silly thoughts that ran through my mind. It’s so innocent, and pure. To have the time to just sit and think and the smallest things. For example, I stood strong on why actors wore shoes in the house on tv lol. But now looking back at it, it’s common sense. But I miss just being kid, If that makes sense.

Conspiracy theories, what is the meaning? The meaning of this word is "A belief that some secret but influential organization is responsible for an event or phenomenon." Now I know the “Illuminati” is like all time top #1 conspiracy. Especially in the pop culture. I can say that it gets dragged out of proportion  by delusional people. The whole purpose is it for it to  be a theory not and actual fact. 

 

 Today I’ve realized how much time is wasted everyday. It’s about to be 2024, and I’m going to be 17 next year which is very alarming lol. I’m noticing that things I’ve had know clue what’s so ever before as a kid has changed. And now I have a point of view on certain topics I’ve took know interest in. Responsibility’s have grown, I’m maturing and so is my age. It crazy because I’ve could’ve sworn I was a freshman just last year. 

 You know that saying “you look good, you feel good” well I personally can say this saying is very reasonable. I feel like yes the outside doesn’t define who you are as a person on the inside. But how you look on the outside may help you confidence, and self love in the inside. For example, my 10th grade year I was really depressed, in a relationship I didn’t even know the meaning of and just stressed. That showed on the outside. Now I’m not saying fake it till you’ll make it. But manifesting something you want for yourself won’t hurt either. 

  To be honest i think Mcdonald's should be canceled. Yes i eat there, but the "founder" is not the founder originally. So basically...   Business man Ray Kroc, wanted to have his ice cream machine in the restaurant. Everyone was turning him down, causing him to travel to different states where he met the Mcdonal's Brothers. They had a restaurant called Mcdonald's in southern California. The brothers was nice enough to hear his pitch. This led the 3 men to go into business. Ray became money hungry and wanted the business to become world wide, while the brothers did not really care about that. They just loved their family's small business. Ray eventually trade marked the Mcdonald's name and made it an LLC. So when the ice cream machine at Mcdonald's is not working for the 50/11th time. Blame Ray! 

 Today i was excited about what today has to bring. I've been feeling so energized and motivated, it's really helped my confidence in my studies and my overall success in life. 2023 hasn't been easy but i would like to take the time out of this blog to congratulate myself. No matter how hard it got i still had hope and i'm thankful for that. Yes i have my days but i have many tomorrow.